Everyday Getting Better

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 The Thoughts Now Are Manageable

I am now able to concentrate on what I want to do, however it does take a long time for me to wake up and it is normally gone lunch before anything productive happens. Very pleased though, the thoughts are less intrusive and the medication doesn't affect me as badly any more.

I have managed to read a few pages of my book this evening and that has been really nice, just to sit listen to some classical and be rewarded with another world within some literature and some made up story about anything possible that could have entered the authors mind.

The book its' self is not particularly popular and is aimed at some adolescent reader I think, but also fits in to my category of fresh from hospital and recovering. I am more than happy with my progress, my mind would not have stayed focused on this book before, when I was getting lost in my on world of technology and games and distractions.

I was and tired and hungry, I didn't weigh a lot and wouldn't communicate properly thus things became ever difficult to manage from day to day.

I am just happy to be able to report a positive new development in my life to you, makes this blog better and worth while.

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