What Happens In The Game

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 The Distraction.

Generally nothing important happens inside the game except for gangsters trying to find out about me and personal things to extort time and money out of me.

These things don't really bother me because there is nothing to do this with in my past or present life. They have tried to find out who I am or whom I hang around with and tried to suggest that they are pedophiles or prostitutes or because of one or the other both, thus they are subject to being owned by a gang and you can do what you want with them for money.

This describes pretty much what is going on in my head, along side someone trying to hire me for secret service on the Catholic Churches' behalf in Ireland.

Unfortunately I am not well or able to help them, due to my having nothing to do with them for pretty much my whole life.

I keep thinking that they are getting confused with someone in a gypsy gang of Peterborough whom isn't working on those things.

So these things all exist whilst the technology is active and I am hearing voices, in what seems to be a virtual environment the rest the time everything is quite forgettable and doesn't bother me or anyone else.

All I have been looking for is to get rid of all forms of technology and day dreaming and continue with my life else where, where I am a bit safer and able to get on with life.

This seems to be the second time I have been attacked by voices and hallucinations, I just don't see how I would be any help with the situation and need to live my own life, due to too much pressure being put on me for those things.

 I don't know anyone so I can't have caused a problem, so all is good I guess.

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