This Blog Helps

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 It Keeps My Mind Organized.

The blog definitely keeps my mind organized and keeps me from thinking to much about the relaxed mind wandering experiences. Struggling for things to write about now though to keep me away from the dark mind wandering experiences.

So far I have let my mind wander into various different subjects that perhaps aren't that clever to let my mind wander into.

I could make a film with these things and it would be really good to watch I think. But I think it may push the boundaries on what is humanely decent and acceptable to a human being. This is because these things have the potential to be quite real and may not be that much of a joke in the real world.

I find it odd how people can make films about gangsters (drugs etc..) but when it come to military or police they struggle to say things due to paranoia of it becoming acceptable when these things do seem to happen to people i.e (programming) unless it is WW2 where it becomes a history in which we need to accept.

Making films that explain what is going on today in history films such as WW2 is difficult to explain are still happening unless you have been through it your self and recognize you won't even realize it is happening to someone.

Mind reading was a desperation of the past quite some time ago. People used to use things like truth syrup and other forms of medication like LSD to get what they wanted out of a subject.

The modern joke is with technology and laptops. If you haven't been through training you won't laugh because you hear different things and you won't have the tools mentally to cope with these things that you a presented with.

You mind won't accept what you are hearing or seeing, so you may laugh hysterically or be very upset and try to work out what is going on, unbeknown to you it is just a method of trying to work out if you are on the same team.

It's all crazy things to not worry about really, I would never get through to selection so I try not to make anything of it and tend to try and make a positive out of a negative and let people know I'm not that much of a threat so they leave me alone.

I will always let people think the worst of a situation and just do what seem to be the thing to do at the time which seems to be not to bother worrying about lifes' little questions and bugger off, they are normally left thinking, well that wasn't too bad and piss everyone else off and make an arse out of them selves, mean while, it's nothing to do with me.

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