Pain

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2nd Post


I am in a lot of pain, no body in their right minds would want to be in my head.

I have a neck problem which is there because of an accident in gymnastics probably or a car crash or some other sporting event in my life. This now I have hit later life has caught up with me because of age and ware and tear, and things not being so flexible.

Sometimes hands go numb other times it feels like I am walking a little sideways, a bit ironic combined with some paranoid ideas around technology and stalkers. It makes me think of Dr. Zoidberg and comical walking.

Being a 31 year old male whom is supposed to be working and or out, sat at home with family I suppose I should try a little harder to write like one. Can't think of many examples of males my ages writing a blog unless focused at a hobby or sports, general concerns doesn't seem to really come into it unless you are mentally down the sh**er which I pretty much feel that that is my position at the moment.

Anyway so this pain I am in seems to go from the back of my neck all the way over the top of my head and sink over my forehead in to my eyeballs deep a the back of them. So not the sort of pain needed for getting on with everyday life, definitely crushes a lot of my personality and makes it hard to express my self so please bare that in mind as I write this blog.

Anyway I managed to get some pain killers for the pain in my head. The Dr. gave me some proper pain pills for my migraine type headache, so i can't complain too much about that.

I'm hoping that they will increase the pain pills from Codeine to Tramadol. My neck is definitely out of place putting pressure or stretching my spinal chord.

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