Middle Of The Day

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 What Happens?

At the middle of the day I will normally be trying to write on my laptop and going out to the shop, normally once in the morning and once in the afternoon.

I am sitting here at the moment wondering what to do. I have just had a cheeky cigarette in the vape yard. We have a vape area in this hospital until that becomes illegal as well.

Basically I am just killing time morning to night until they say I am well enough to go home.

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