Looking at the blunt end of a pencil

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 Not Sure Whether These Blog Post A Uploading

These blog posts are now becoming quite far and few between. In my spare time which is quite a lot of the time I am programming and looking at games to inspire my programming.

I really like doing these things but my mind keeps wandering into other things rather unfairly I would say is fair to say.

Struggling for things to write other than those things. My morning routine is to get up and go downstairs for a cigarette and then on to writing or programming, obviously not living the most exciting life at the moment. Waiting for lockdown to ease up so I can go and get my hair cut professionally, as shown in photo it needs it.

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