Later In The Day

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I Tried To Make This Less Offensive 

I have tried to make these things that I am writing less offensive, but as time goes on the become more and more specific and it is hard to keep them general.

I have delusions that make me think I have technology in my eyes and my ears (in my head basically). A games machine that distracts me from everyday tasks like going to work or eating or sleeping.

These technologies bring distractions that I call games that allow me to separate my self from the real world and what is going on is how a logical person would look at it.

To me the technologies are quite real and are about real things that go on. Obviously I have been to the police about these things and they are convinced they are not there in my head even though secret service use something called Whitehall which is were I believe the technology to come from.

All well and good then, but why put technology in somebodies head and not say?

Well the technologies are distracting me by ways of entertainment and psychological testing to distract me from getting anything done about them.

As far as I can see I am being laughed at by 4 pissy media journalists and an army of coppers. The four journalists, I remain convinced don't have a clue where the technology comes from but I presume them to be aware of what is going on.

I hope the police read these things and stop laughing and start doing something because these are not welcome things for anybody to live with or suffer from.

 The technology teaches things that are built into most peoples' common sense and they need not to do these things when someone is suffering from a breakdown. 

I have met people of all ages in these hospitals and I presume these people to be suffering from similar things. They seemed to be putting me in situations I don't want to be and they seem to put me with people I don't like doing things I don't want to be doing.

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