Last Night Was Going No Where

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 It Was So Boring

I couldn't settle or do anything last night. I was irritated and bored I even struggled to write my blog it was becoming that bad. My mind also wouldn't relax and go into dream world so I couldn't write about any new ideas. With being irritated I suppose it was going to be a hard job to sit and write anyway.

When my mind is like it was last night normally it comes down to no eating enough no sleeping enough or not drinking enough. So I end up normally being irritated until I have done said things.

Right now I don't think I have been drinking enough so I am very faint on the depths I am able to think it is almost like just skimming the surface of what my brain is able to do, very faint and light at the moment.

Blood sugar is another reason for these things, so I am drinking cola, next I will be drinking water. Tea would also have been acceptable for these things. They should speed up my brain and stop me thinking to deeply into subconsciousness and allow me to be fairly conscious.

Think these are some of the reasons why i write about getting out of here so much, is that I'm either not well fed or watered or both, possibly tired as well. Quite strange to wake up from, but I recognise that I am well below my weight and can't do as many things as I should be able to do, so it is all about eating drink and sleeping to recover.


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