Further and Further Into Mental Disturbances

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The Distraction

Regularly consists of the lady in red. The lady in red is a reference from a film to do with he Matrix and keeping focused.

The story is that a chap gets his whole mission confused by being involved with and protecting the lady in red whilst she walks circles round him and finishes him off at the end (or attempts to) by which time he has learnt that women can be just as dangerous as men (bros).

The distraction regularly uses these techniques to manipulate my behaviors in the right direction, most of the time I give up and get on with things.

I constantly have to ground my self and check my thinking for paranoia based on these rules. Take the lady in red rule, this could be my current girlfriend or someone whom I would like to go out with, because the technology is real to me I seem to have a James Bond frenzy going on that the woman whom I am with could be distracting me from my current goals, thus becomes a game between my ears and things that are real to me and in my ears.

My life has always been manipulated and push from pillar to post where I would normally be able to sort my own problems with out being babied along to ensure the safety of people or my self.

 

 

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