A New Start

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 A Fresh Start

I am finally getting discharged today and I can't wait to be freed from these beds and life and starting over again.

I am now sitting at home, when I wrote the above it was lunch time and I had to go shortly after writing it. Yep so I am now sitting at home thinking how to make this last and making plans for the future. I have spent too much time in hospital which has not been great.

I have some people coming over tomorrow to make sure that I am okay and from there we will see what is happening if anything at all.

Need to find the lights for my bike and need to get back on it cycling again.

Well before I sat on the sofa or lay down on it I really should have cleaned the sofa, there was broken glass everywhere on it, I have just pulled 2-3 pieces away from my backside and boy was that uncomfortable.

I should be getting the hoover fixed tomorrow and I have some follow up medication to take. So I am now sitting at home happy but lonely and it is not always easy to find people to talk to or finding ways of entertaining your self. I am willing to bet that cycling and obsessive tidying is going to be what comes next.

I used to live in a flat in Stratford and that was epic, I used to go out cycling for four hours whilst the dinner cooked on the side. I used to love cooking for my self but I was always eating, sleeping or hungry if I wasn't cycling.

So grateful for this fresh start I want it to go well, yet I am so regretting so many things that I have not done right in my life I just want to give my best shot at it and get back to some level of fitness to feel good and take away some of the bad things that I do, like smoking. my blog for cycling is: https://cyclingthinwheels.blogspot.com/ So I shall be adding to it A.S.A.P! 

I have made a meal planner to make sure I eat 5 meals a day and have good portions to help me to gain weight.

I am always more lively after I have eaten (noticeably so) so obviously I am not getting my required daily amount.

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