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 The Thoughts Now Are Manageable I am now able to concentrate on what I want to do, however it does take a long time for me to wake up and it is normally gone lunch before anything productive happens. Very pleased though, the thoughts are less intrusive and the medication doesn't affect me as badly any more. I have managed to read a few pages of my book this evening and that has been really nice, just to sit listen to some classical and be rewarded with another world within some literature and some made up story about anything possible that could have entered the authors mind. The book its' self is not particularly popular and is aimed at some adolescent reader I think, but also fits in to my category of fresh from hospital and recovering. I am more than happy with my progress, my mind would not have stayed focused on this book before, when I was getting lost in my on world of technology and games and distractions. I was and tired and hungry, I didn't weigh a lot and wouldn...

  So I Am Feeling Better I have been at home, whilst feeling quite tired and exhausted I have been tidying cleaning and getting things sorted and feel much better.  My mind has almost stopped playing tricks on me but I am feeling quite sedated and not quite feeling like my self, this is probably because I am on medication that really does slow me down to an intolerable state. It is coming across in the way I write as well, my spelling is not so good nor is my wording. I will hope that these are no permanent things and hope that it sort of passes of as some sort of readable standard for you, basically I feel like I am writing drunk and not fully aware. I went out on my pushbike today rather reluctantly and didn't go very far but it was nice to get out and do something, legs felt better afterwards.

There Is Still A Little Mess There is still a little mess to clear up but most of it has gone back in the car back to my parents house. I have a feeling that tomorrow will be a cleaning and tidy day along with a morning bike ride and a coffee if I dare push my self to , I will be happier. Instead of trying to motivate my self I generally have a thought of something I would like to do the night before write about it and then in the morning challenge my self to get up and go do it, I then find I forget about the rut I was in trying to motivate my self to do it. Happiness is still not back yet, when I get on the pushbike I notice a difference in my mentalities and generally prefer myself after I have been out and exercised.  I had to push my self to do the main room and found that the above method works for me quite well, I don't complain much either which is a bonus.